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♔ Sunday, September 5, 2010
6:18 PM |
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Official graduate this September as I have been doing nothing since May. Interviews maybe good but it makes me fall from the top all the way to the bottom. They give me hope, give me good feed backs and in the end Im still here, they did not hired me only making me like a fool, helping them to do advertisements here and there. Uncle ask me not to be demoralize however I'm getting to lose hope, I pray for a better and stable life but things isn't showing up, is it because I am not sincere enough or they just isn't looking at me. They predicted and give me good blessing for my career, but still non of the good stuff appears. Day by Day pass, it makes me feel that I'm super useless, why is it so difficult to get into this industry, or I want to was to start from the beginning and learn from there den wasting all the time staying at hm doing nth. Or design really not my cup of tea? It is really a big question mark, a question til now isn't being revealed. I just need a little bit of light, a light to show me or lead me to the correct place, why is it so difficult. The more I feel upset and questioning here and there, it makes me feel even more useless, why I'm I not having networks for me to get there. My fate is to sit down and wait is that so? I suppose it is.
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♔ Wednesday, August 11, 2010
2:58 AM |
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I learn to keep my mouth shut, whatever that happened just remain silent, the more you make your stand the more you make mistake. Why get myself into unnecessary trouble.having to work in a small little booth, yet there are so many eyes looking at you, complain here and there, everything just not in line. I told myself that I have to be positive not to be over react in any ways but still things still causes me to get a little moody. How long or will I ever be in the position where I have people working under me, I do not have to look at any other people face, what I do is all up to me. Isit possible? I doubt so. At this critical age, most or I can say some of the people had already having a stable job which bring them a promotion or even better opportunity for building up their asset. And for me what I can do is wait, wait and wait...
I dont wanna b a robot, a puppet nor even a dog. I WANT TO BE MYSELF!!
chant away my anger, chant away my hatred n also my negative mindset...
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♔ Tuesday, August 10, 2010
2:44 AM |
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As we grown up, life tend to change, regardless good nor bad, we still have to live on. All we can do is to be super positive to whatever that comes to us. For now, all I wanna have was to get myself a stable income, which enable me to go for my oversea trip, last but not least my goal with my dear emi that we will go for our degree in Lasalle in 2 yrs time. But it had to depend whether or not we are already a full timer in the market :) Let's not think about it now, and pray hard that the director would hired me on September.
Right now, I have to get myself stick at downtown for the lucky draw job for a mth. Yesterday was my day 1, people all are enjoying their national day holiday whereas I am here to work, what to do I have to earn money for my allowance, so I shall not grumble. Weather this few days is killing me, the sun seem to be doing his job almost everyday, & at the same time giving out a temperature of roughly 30 Degree Celsius of heats.I simply hope is rains whenever I work, if not day after day I would be roasted like BBQ human meat. And worse thing is I'm already very tan.
Let time pass fast.......12 more days.
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♔ Tuesday, June 29, 2010
5:27 PM |
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After working at Blic Ice Cream shop I realised, there's a lot of different types of funny people living in this world. Hard to describe how this people actually are but what I can say is they are just not normal. And one more thing I noticed in the shop is that, couples who came into the shop, most of the male they will order their shared alone and when come to the payment part, instead of being a gentleman taking out their wallet to pay, they will just stand there and wait for the female to pay for them. OMG!!! Super hard to believe . I cannot imagine if my bf is this sort of guy that would want me to pay.. What is going on to people living in this generation? What is the problems that causes them to changed? During my parents period, hardly you will see this kind of scene would be put up..hmm... I'm so curious about this. What I can say to convince myself is that, maybe women now are more capable than men, they are earning more than a men do :p ( which is a happy things because Female are successful now.) I guess if any male who had seen this statement, I bet they will fight back with a lot of disagreement however I still have to let them know, it will be true if you guys dont wanna buck up !!
back to work... :)
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♔ Saturday, June 12, 2010
10:07 PM |
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A New Chapter.
I am going to get myself out of the comfort zone, get started with the working life that I am suppose to be in!!
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♔ Saturday, January 10, 2009
10:36 PM |
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TIRED!!!
CAN I GET MYSELF OUT OF THE CIRCLE???
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♔ Tuesday, December 16, 2008
5:43 AM |
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I'm having a fever and I only realize it when I finished my work. I called him before I go home but he did not answer, so went home to rest and I found that I had a miss call. Reply him his call and the same no answer but later I receive a msg he told me he went massage. Upon reading the msg it really make me feel uncomfortable, I dunno why, and worse is I break one of the glass while walking to the kitchen, does it trying to show a bad sign to me, I really dunno. I hate this feeling once again, I'm getting to regret , or can I say I'm not fit to have get into a relationship. I just need a little attention, a little care and concern but now all this are no longer being shown. You are tired I understand, you have alot of works to do I also understand, I choose not to give you problem, hardly sent you any msg nor call you alr. In the past 2 mths you used to called me, nv fail to be there for me showing ur care and concern however everything changed. NOT THE SAME! I dunno I'm being over or not but I just wanna speak up the feeling in me. Alot of pple told me u r a nice guy, you are this and that, I agreed but now I have no answer. Everything I do, you know, but everything you do I know nth. Since that is the case I cant control you and you cant control me, I will nv going to say every single things that happen , I will just keep quiet. If you dont trust me at all den I really cannot do anything. Caused I dunno have to trust you also.=(